well I have my new blog all set up and I LOVE it! www.xanga.com/Shelly_the_strange is the site...go take a look! I may keep posting in here every once in a while but don't count on it. Sorry for any incoviniences (wow I cant spell at 2:15 in the morning)

Yes I know I just started this blog but I don't really like blogdrive and therefore I'm switching to a new user. I'm gonna use zanga cause it seems like alot of people like them. Sorry for anyone who's been following this blog (I don't think many people do) but I'll post my new blog just as soon as I get it started :)

Well I've been cleaning out my iTunes and getting them ready to put on my iPod and I know it's really silly but I've made a song list for like a boyfriend. Actually every time I listen to it I think of a certain person but we're not gonna get into that. So anyways I've found this song that is sooooo cute....You Belong to Me by Jason Wade. Here's the lyrics:

See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sun rise
From the tropic isle
Just remember, darling
All the while
You belong to me
See the marketplace in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember
When a dream appears
You belong to me

And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane

See the jungle
When it’s wet with rain
Just remember
Till you're home again
You belong to me

And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle
When it’s wet with rain
Just remember
Till you're home again
You belong to me

Aww aint that cute. Well the other songs on the list are Everything I Do I Do For You, Best Years of Our Lives by Baha Men, Falling in Love is Hard on the Knees by Aerosmith, Carry This Picture by Dashboard Confessional, Song for a Mix Tape by Ataris, Green Eyes by Cold Play (my new fave song, I wish someone would sing that to me), I Believe in a Thing Called Love by the Darkness, Can't Help Falling in Love by Elvis, and I'd Rather be in Love by Michelle Branch. I know it's a crazy mix and it seem like 4 diff genres all mixed together but I like it.

Well that's all, just felt like talking some more.

God bless
Michelle

This break has been so good! I've had some quality time of relaxation and even some bonding time with my little brother, we saw Series of Unfortunate Events today (SOOOOOO good!). I am officially done with my Christmas shopping and I feel I did really good this year, everything was very thoughtful and hopefully everyone will like their gifts. I love Christmas! Getting presents for everyone is sooooooo much fun, I love it.

I found this amazing CD at work called Ultimate Worship and it ROCKS! It's all the songs we sing at like NCYC and Camp and Steubie. So I decided to write T a nice little letter and make her a CD with all the best songs on it. I'm gonna mail it to her tomorrow.

God bless and all my love

Michelley

Well today was the last day of the semester! Turned in my western civilizations exam and paper and got back the last one which I thought I did horribly on but got a 96%, guess my cruddy exam wasn't so cruddy after all. Then I took my soc exam and turned in my extra credit. Looking back at this last semester I really wish I had worked harder. Something I must work on. But anyways since winter break is over a month long I don't want to waste my precious time so I figured why not make a list of things to accomplish and work for during this holiday season! So here's the list, still in progress...

1) Re-start my prayer journal and get into the habit of writing in it often
2) Pray more often, especially the rosary
3) re-read the Chronicles of Narnia and depending on time The Lord of the Rings
4) Make the effort to work out more often and try to loose the weight I so despritly want to loose
5) Make this holiday season one to be remembered by spending quality time with family and friends.

Well that's all I have so far, not too shabby if I may say so myself. All the goals are things I have been working on bringing back into my life as a day to day thing and I thought what better time to get it started than this amazingly long break I have from school. A time to refocus and grow, both spiritually and mentally.

God bless and happy winter break!
Michelle

I'm sorry I haven't gotten around to writting anything in a while but I've been quite busy. This week is finals and I've been crackin the books. I still have a 4 page paper to write on rock music and drug culture in the 60s and 70s, a movie to watch for extra credit, and a sociology test to cram for. My last final is at 7PM thursday and then I'm free! I've been so busy I haven't had much time for alot of prayer a reflection lately although I have started praying the rosary more which really helps with the stress. I don't think many people know but for quite a while I kept a prayer journal and I would love to get back to doing that as it really helped me have a constant conversation with God. Hopefully with over a month of winter break I can get back to doing that as well as weekly adoration and mass. I hope to really grow closer to God throughout this break and make it more possible to bring God back into my everyday life. Well I don't know about anyone else but I'm really starting to get in the Christmas spirit. This past saturday my family decorated the house and it looks absolutly beautiful. We have even gotten in the habit of burning the advent wreath every sunday. For those of you who don't know this past saturday was shop till you drop with St. Margret Mary youth group. It was an absolute blast! We had a small group of ten so we took the train in and learned "life skills" to quote Theresa. I guess the best way to tell you guys how much fun it was is to show you a picture...

Well I better start writing that paper about crazy hippies.
God Bless and Merry Christmas
Michelle

I just wanted to tell you guys about a few great catholic sites I've found lately. No Mo Ho, keep your pants on! Pax Clothing, they got one amazing shirt! It's definatly on the Xmas wish list. and Digital Catholic! great wallpapers, icons, links, and more!. No mo ho is a great site! They even have an interview with Matt Smith who we saw at NCYC last year. Next is Pax clothing, with great shirts, links, and some amazing music while you look around the site. And just for refrence I really dig the our lady shirt in in pink and green, I take a medium or small. Last but not least we have The amazing digital catholic site, I just changed my aim icon to the JP2 one and I reset my background to the majorly dope advent wallpaper. Also I'd like to introduce you (well those that don't already know about them) to a CATHOLIC rock band. No more christian, doesn't really relate to me stuff (not saying that they have replaced Relient K as my fave band). I'd have to say the thing most spin about this band is the fact that they are non-for profit so you can actually get free CDs and other amazing stuff! Seven Sorrows, CATHOLIC music!. Oh did I mention that they'll come and talk at your youth group! (hint hint T).

So for probably about the last two weeks I've been feeling really down. I had been spiritually dead and just totally burned out. School was just overwhelming me and I was having thoughts such as I don't really need to go to college, I could always just get married and have my husband make the living. Then, yesterday I felt so terrible. I felt like carp and even wondered how suicide would be (don't worry, I knew this was very irrational). I longed for God. Last night I prayed and prayed that the Lord come back into my life. I was so much happier when I had a strong faith this summer but it just faided as school began and work and sin and everything engulfed me. Well I was feeling terrible, laying there praying, I heard nothing, absolutly nothing. I even had thoughts of maybe God didn't really exist, otherwise he would be helping me right now. Well today I just kept thinking and praying and hoping. I even started crying to a Relient K song while on my way home from class this morning. Well I spent the day doing homework and phatmassing, and pretty much just being lazy. Then there was work this evening and of course thinking and thinking and thinking some more (because what else do you do at a library while you shelve books). So then after work I decided to go drop off my deposit for World Youth Day and see T. T and I talked for about an hour, I have to say the best hour I've spent talking to someone in quite a while. Anyways she asked me to come back to camp this summer as a YMT (youth minister in training), that alone made my week. Then she was telling me all about her retreat, the NCYC for youth ministers, and she told me about Net team and how she met alot of people from it. She told me that she thinks that I would be a perfect person for it and that I should really look into it. Well for some reason I've always had a calling to do some sort of mission work or something after college, before my career. Well I keep having this feeling that maybe Net is what I'm ment to do. So this really psyched me up. We also talked about college and stuff. I have to say that that talk really lifted my spirits. I think God pushed me to go pay my deposit so I could see that He really was there for me. Talking to Teresa was something I think I really needed. I needed someone to talk to who has the job I want some day and who has such strong faith and beliefs. I mean I have catholic friends that are amazing and I go to everything with but I think I needed T. We have alway connected on that level and I always feel like I'm a special person when I'm around her.
Well I'm dead tired and have a 4 pg paper due tomorrow at 2 that I've barely started. Write later.

God bless and Mary protect,
Michelle

Well today is the day once a year where we stuff our bellies and get work off to do it. I will be spending the day with my cousin and his girlfriend, we're going to the zoo! Make the most of this great day and don't forget to thank God for everything he's given you.

Well first snow of the season is finally here! I am very sad at this and don't wanna even open the door. Coats, gloves, scarves, hats, and boots here I come. Here's what it looks like if you look out my window right now. Note the snow on the roof. Time for hibernation!


About an hour later...


Yes, winter is here. Tear.